Sometimes I feel like the worst mom ever. I know that I am not actually the worst mom ever - but there are days where I just feel like an epic failure.
Tonight was one of those nights where Connor messed up and I reacted in the completely wrong way. I didn't keep my cool, I didn't act like it was no big deal, I wasn't in control at all. I basically did the exact opposite of what I have been told I am supposed to do.
There were tears (both of us), there was pouting (both of us), there were frustrated sighs (yep, you guessed it), and then he fell asleep on the way home. At that point there were more tears; just me this time, telling Ben how I completely blew it. Then there was reassurance; Ben telling me that it would all be okay.
As I put Connor to bed I told him in his sleepy state, I did the thing that several experienced parents have told me never to do, but that I am determined to do anyway; I apologized to him for loosing my patience and asked for his forgiveness. Then in a very sleepy and quiet voice he told me "I forgive you mom." Four simple words that help make a mom feel a little bit better. The best part is that I know tomorrow we will start with a clean slate and a good morning hug.
Don't be so hard on yourself!!! That's called human!!
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